A recount of the past one year; I know this is unbearably passe but looking back the year is one of the few ways to make me cherish what life has given me.

January was composed of a lot of ups and downs I remember. It was also the end of a series of good clubbing and fun since most of my friends had started school. New year's good party was over and I'd resume my routine lifestyle at ESPNSTAR for my temp job. Lopo held a reunion party that month and it was very unforgettable having to meet up many friends I'd lost contact with for a verrrrry long time. Okay maybe that month doesn't seem as happening as it ought to be; I think got carried away "emo-ing" on my blog that entire month!

2008 is also the year I attempted colour contacts for the first time and got really hooked onto coloured pupils! OOoh and we sent dear Lopo off to NZ at the airport, that was another unforgettable moment to see a dear friend leave for another faraway place. ....And I wrote a few qualitatively worthy (I feel) entries in Feb! I celebrated mommy's birthday by buying her a bouquet of red roses, and I think it meant the world to her then~ I probably have to wreck my brains in the coming February again. February is also the month I passed my driving test and getting a license to travel on wheels, finally!

The earlier few months of 2008 was good cuz that's when all the guys ORD and we can finally catch up on the few good years that we've been missing out on each others' lives.

First half of the year was mostly spent with my colleagues in ESS and that's where I got acquainted to the very sociable and amicable Shiang Wah.


This has got to be the most memorable clubbing experience for me at St. James- the one and only time with JS and Fye together...

There were a lot of birthday parties to attend I remember, all belonging to the happy twentyones. 2008 is the year most of my friends of the same age turn 21, me included of course! Tammy's and Woon's birthday bash were both pretty memorable.

BKK trip with Abel, Jo and Jeff in June was 大丰收!

And who can forget the best birthday celebration yet after my 18th...

August starts off as a new beginning of me enrolling into university life, which later unfolded to many new things like canoepolo and hall life! The first semester, most especially towards the later half, was a killer. It gets so stressful I'm up to my neck but my senior says we have to adapt to this lifestyle in business school because it gets tougher every semester. The first sem is only the appetizer. =P

Then came holidays (hell booooo. it's ending so soon) and I took up an internship programme with Great Eastern. This year is also my most daring feat when I became a blond!

2008 in retrospect, was the most revealing year so far I think. Getting back into school life and adapting to new friends and new environment. I have grown up so much over the year and it's really a spiritually good walk knowing that I'm never walking this path alone.

Cheers to 2008 and a better new year ahead!
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I have been...
...contemplating on flying to HK/Macau during the Summer Holidays
...thinking who I can/should ask along, and shuddering upon the thought of the sheer lack of genuine friends I can call upon.
...emo-ing over my blog jukebox's songs
...lamenting over my inaction to accomplish my otherwise alternate lifestyle I plan to set foot on
...dreaming most of the time
...thinking when's the most appropriate time to meet up with Andrew and Zee
...toying with the idea of weight training and a good jog tomorrow but no concrete plans still


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I think the time spent when I hit the roads has surpassed the time spent with friends today. I thought finding my way with the all-time handy street directory would help, but my folly caused me a good deal this round. Damn jialat, I wandered from Keppel to Henderson then to River Valley then to Orchard and boy, the part at Moulmein exit was the killer when I smartass-ingly thought I was on the right path, only to find out I was going the opposite direction! Zzzz~

Caribbean at Keppel Bay is sheer luxury for the home-owners. Not only do the condos face the sea, the overall architecture and grandeur was overwhelming for my first time visit. I must own something like that in future!

This photo is kinda awkward eh? ESPN peeps...I left the event at Caribbean early and left for Bridget's where my tutorial friends were having great fun since late afternoon. I was late obviously, so I'd probably missed out the highlights. But still it was a good catchup.


Stephy.

And this is how Christmas was spent.

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Merry Christmas guys, I hope life's been good to all.

I realised that one shouldn't really ask for more than what life has to offer. This little thing called greed can be a scary thing, but it's so inbuilt in our human nature I find it really hard to rid off. That insatiable hunger for perfection/completion that is never attainable; that queasy sour feeling inside we struggle with so often. I think the analogy of one looking at a glass full of water yet frowning over the empty space unfilled can be a good way to explain it.

It's hard to fit.

It's hard to be.

Because you just can't, and you will never be.

I am trying hard still to readjust my perspective and am contemplating on an alternative lifestyle. Because I really loathe the current state I am in.

I know I deserve better, I know I can be better...



I just have to give it a try.


I don't have to settle for mediocrity like the rest of you, I don't have to contend with your expectations, because I believe in breakthroughs. I believe in miracles.

And with hope, life persists. Nothing is impossible.

I hope this is not appearing to be just another crappy emo note coming from me. I hope it's a sincere written declaration of new found faith and determination, and pray not another empty promise.



Keep me in prayers.

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There's more to the Yuletide season. It's the joy of thanksgiving and sharing the love of Christmas, remembering our grace and being thankful for the people that we have come across from all walks of life.

Every time of the year I will remember you all, and hold you close to my heart. And that's what friends are for.

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Many thanks to Casey who provided his condo bbq site for the 49-ers for the lil party last night. I hear it's an annual block 49 event tradition thingy. Anyways we had great fun and good food =)

Damien TY Michelle. TY damn funny in all the photos!

The 49 gang!

I'm a glutton I know, but the truth is they prepared really good pork ribs!

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Life on the other side of the world

Or so I heard

...

...is beautiful.

You have to see it for yourself.

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Andrew I don't know if this should be the appropriate response to your request. Anyways I tried out the personality test and it turned out I'm a INTP. My ideal type (whatever that should mean) read a ENFP, which supposedly is a sharp contrast to my "real" personality, that which I assumed as the personality we exhibit most of the time.

I will always remember how Danny once used to describe me as an enigmatic person. I think it's really hard for others to understand me thoroughly; even I find myself hard to figure out sometimes. Furthermore the way I represent myself to people can be starkly opposites to the "real" me inside. In so many ways I contradict myself a lot and it gets quite emotionally traumatising. But I think I am more capable of coming to terms with these little emotional/personality conflicts as I grow older.

As much as I'd love to carry on, I'd have to keep this short because I need to turn in early tonight. Tomorrow is the start of another week of internship programme. We are having some formal attire workshop at Eunos, sounds fun eh? And I get to wear my newly-bought leather shoes tomorrow =)

お休み～

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There are many lessons in life
Learning to be humble
Learning to socialise, to give, to love, to respect...
Learning to be courageous and stand up for what's right.
Learning to make a difference in life and in our community.

Learning to say no.
Learning to be appreciative and thankful for every lil' grace in life
Learning the power of positivity
Learning to accept rejections, to learn from failures
Learning to see beyond flaws and to find goodness no matter how difficult the circumstances
Learning to take charge of my own life
Learning to grow up
Learning that there's something more to life than its mere existence and brevity...that everything has a meaning.

And after all these years,
I realised...


...that I am still learning.

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今晚我不孤单，因为我有快乐陪伴……

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東京タワー　オカンとボクと、時々、オトン

...everytime I think of you.

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At the click of the mouse, what seemed to be almost unbelieveable came true! I actually passed my Module 5! It felt like a very rare defining occasion. I know it's no big deal to brag about, but it's really a huuuuuge relief for me to know that the stress + burden that will probably come along with retaking the exam won't snowball this time round.

终于放下心中的那块大石头……

After the exam (which ended near 9PM), the walk to City Hall MRT felt surprisingly very good, which in fact I haven't felt like this for a very long time. It's more than relief, it's the sense of carefreeness...to walk down the streets with my earphones plugged, ipod-ing to my favourite tunes and not having to give a hoot about surrounding funny stares and what's not.

I'm getting used to my hair colour, and I certainly hope friends around me are too. It's interesting how I get all the funny attention from bypassers and bumping into lil' silly occurences that leave people with an impression, or striking random conversation(s) with people over my hair. Some people are probably thinking: Eddie's doing this to get unnecessary attention or he's probably trying TOO hard to make an impression. I'm just hoping my new hair colour won't be the indirect cause of any ill feelings rendered towards me, which I can foresee happening in the new semester. So far I have already gotten a lot of mixed reactions from people. But seriously the truth is I didn't really put in much thoughts prior to getting my hair done, all I wanted was to try a shade different and besides I won't really have much chance to try something like this after the next semester because by the second year it will be the internship period and I will have to really get down to business, i.e. proper short bangs and no colour of course! Thus explains my radical heck-with-it attitude about my hair.

Bah it's times like these when you hit late hours and sink into a mental block. I'm gonna cut short and just leave a note to remind myself that it was a funny and awkward incident seeing BingCheng(my secondary school gym team junior)at Bugis today. Ummm, how abrupt.
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LOL try and figure this out yourself. I nearly freaked out at first and thought that was some kind of voodoo trick behind it. Come to think of it, the blonde is getting into me.



http://www.learnenglish.org.uk/games/magic-gopher-central.swf

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I'm not very smart. Have never been.
The worse part is, I'm never good at concealing my flaws.

.

And I'd wish the world would be a bit more forgiving
Because there's no where to run, no where to hide.
And it gets so tiring I just want to give up
...to find a corner and cry.

But the dark silence that encloses has no tolerance for weakness nor fear
And it gets even more frightening, ever.

This is not meant to be.
This is not what I want to be.
This is not what I want.
This is not...
This is not.

Run.
.
...
......
...Run.

And it echoes on.

Because keeping stationary is the last thing I want to do.
Because being conscious of my incapacity brings a shuddering pain- a fear so painful you can't describe.

And so I run. Even if I have to end up running in circles, I'd run. Till my last breath.
Because I know I have to.

I wonder if I'm even still alive.

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I love this time of the year, now doncha? With Christmas around the corner, how are you spending the festive season this year?

I wanted to throw a Christmas party and invite all my friends over to my place for dinner. Then, on second thought, the idea of sending out invites, all the unexpected overheads and messy food preparations just made me change my mind. There are a lot of people on my mind I want to meet asap, but I'm not quite sure when's the appropriate time to ring them up for a meal.

Whenever I think about how I've just screwed my December schedule so badly, it makes me want to puke. I have a whole line up of modules to attend to fulfil my internship with Advisers Alliance this month, plus there's NAAT(auditing) which should start by next week, on top of that I have canoepolo trainings (but that's a less worrying concern I think). My first internship training started today at Great Eastern Building. For a start we are going through really dry theory lessons on financial advising; I think the introduction to the various financial instruments was rather useful. To add, I have a chunky coursebook to finish by Saturday before we go for our first theory test that consists of 100 MCQ questions.

I want to take up something meaningful this holiday. I know it's a very short period and I am falling behind time even if I wanted to. I'll probably go read up on some useful digital graphic designing techniques or brush up on my Japanese if I am taking my Jap elective next semester.

The trip to JB this Saturday is cancelled due to my commitment with AA for the theory test. Still, am looking forward to the next opportunity to do shopping at JB. On top of that, I am eyeing on new loafers from Pedro.

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