Well, when I was a little kid, I use to put my nose right up to them. And I was just amazed because it looked like this mass of dots, and none of it made sense until I pulled back. Life looks like that mass of dots to me sometimes. None of it makes any sense, but I like to think that, from God's perspective, life, everything - even this - make sense. It's not just dots. Instead we're all connected, and it's beautiful and funny and good. This close we can't expect it to make sense, not right now.

...Seeing the bigger picture.

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Human relationship can be a sensitive and tricky issue to be dealt with on a more personal level. Much less talked about despite being identified reasonably of the existence and gravitas every individual relationship hold in our lives. I don't think it's disregarded; I'd like to think of it as something not fully appreciated by most. That said, I must stress that I am only talking about the subject with relevance to my own experiences with friends I have come across with thus far.

The expression of appreciation for our "connections", or technically speaking, the gratitude towards our mutual fulfilment of emotional gratification acted upon each other is often weak and insignificantly visible. A more secular and modern society could have undermined such "abilities" whereby we take comfort in the knowledge of merely the importance respective individuals have in our lives-- thinking it should suffice and that there's simply no further advancement in bridging the relation.

Metaphorically speaking, it's like limiting a "relationship" with someone to be seen as a book that after being read, the book has attained its highest level of purpose and is left isolated at a corner of a shelf. Once in awhile, we would take the book off the shelf and read it again. Beyond that, there's really nothing you can do with the book but to leave things just as they are. In a way, it's a very myopic way of looking at or handling relationships.

I don't like friendships and even casual acquaintanceship to be forged on a foundation of formalities and social practicality. Sometimes it's inevitable but still I must display my dislike. I don't like maintaining connections in the long term merely over a few get-togethers and meals, or a few short and standard formal greetings by SMS during festive occasions. That is because, these considerably small acts are, qualitatively speaking, insignificant and too subtle...sometimes even superficial.

It's very ironic of me to be saying all these since I must agree it's awfully hard to break out of these social conventions; but which is why it supports the clause of the entire arguement which is about the difficulty of dealing with relationships. As much as I am hopeful to see to it that I will one day go beyond what I am capable of with managing such "connections", I believe it will take a considerable amount of effort and courage for such a breakthrough.

We are all connected in a very special way I think. Which is why I value relationships a lot. ...and that leads me to the next entry quite irrelevant from this one. ><

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Taken on July 20, on the way out to catch a bus to town. These two were keeping company outside a house that was undergoing renovation on a warm lazy afternoon.

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回想起年少的时候
谢谢有你在我身旁
带给我最美好的回忆

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So many more birthday songs to sing for you
This bond we share has become a love affair
Let's grow old t'gether shall we?
Loving you always, 04A11!

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Our girl is finally 21! And what better cause to call for a celebration~
The same type of marble balloons used at Stupid Cupid event five years ago. Gosh.
The guests streamed in one by one not before long. From various cliches like SYC, Hwa Chong choir, classmates (present and former ones) from uni, JC and secondary school.
Zechy Wooong!

A pair of lovebirds~kookoo (whistles).=P
The Choy Family.
@ 2AM Dessert Bar, Holland V.
Shuai Ge Mei Nv from 04A11.
Ballooooons!
You guys came late! Shunling & Charmaine. SL just came back from UK for hols and it's been two years since we last met.
Ms Pek Huixian!
Zee's face flustered after a few shots.
We love you woon!
By popular demand, Woon belted out two songs for the crowd. The two songs are "If I Ain't Got You" and "Over The Rainbow". (see below for the videos)
The guys.
The class got her a Nintendo DS Lite and yes she was full of smiles when she unwrapped the gift. I would too if I was her, hahaha!
With Yuru and LipYong!
I've known him since primary school; it's amazing how time passes and we've grown up so much already.
And the cake arrives! One splendid surprise after another.
Giv'it up for 04A11! Hurrayssss.

I think it's beyond what words I can say to you
After all so many years of
friendship can never be summed up so briefly
But this feeling just grows
stronger and stronger each day
You being a part of me
And I, a part of
you

Thank you, for being a part of my life Siew Woon.

Happy Birthday.


VIDEOS (PART ONE)

VIDEO(PART TWO)

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It was a saturday 6pm.

Zee drove us to Seletar to do a few experimental shots for Qiaolin that evening and we were planning to head out for dinner.

This is gonna be narrative style and me being the professional ethical photographer, I should showcase a few good pics first.

This was taken at an open field next to Seletar airport.
Qiaolin looks really candid good and photogenic in all the photos, plus we had a cool breezy weather that day.
Notice I choose to use subtle soft colours for the photographs this time.
Talk about oldschool style.
Nice =)
Okay and this was the final shot taken...

...when I got ambushed from behind by two barbaric masked thugs clad in no.4! I was pinned to the ground with face eating dirt literally. Crazy Azmi got so into his roleplaying he even used his ICCT wristbending skills on me and I had to submit to my "kidnappers" helplessly. And yes, it almost felt so real because the two kidnappers were really good with the acting I remember at a point they got so violent one even demanded me to shut up and nearly broke my wrist, man.

My hands and legs were both cabletied and they blindfolded me by topping a balaclava over my head.

The entire process was filmed down but I don't have the video with me now. It'd have been really traumatic if I didn't figure out it was all a scheme!

Anyways the plot was foiled by the victim yours truly because I managed to break free on Andrew's car using brute force to snap open the cables!

The people who made this unforgettable experience possible: Andrew ("the thug driver"), Zee (bloodyhell mastermind!), Qiaolin (accomplice!), Azmi and Farhan (yeah who nearly had my life), Joyce(camerawoman) and Jeremy ("extra thug with the Halloween mask")
Zee and Andrew: What'd I do without you?
The plot couldn't end so abruptly so there was a part II improvised whereby I was blindfolded and thrown back into the back of the car...then being driven to another place which I later found out to be andrew's house.
Ekks.
Tammy and Josh sprung a pleasant surprise over at Andrew's...I didn't know they were coming beforehand.
Damn. Zee had that photo of me on pasted my head deliberately. That J1 loathsome pic with my centreparting! ahhaah.
Sadistic Farhan >< Spare me the humiliation~~
...and here comes the cake!
(!!!)
Thank you all!
"You Kena Punk'd"
A very memorable 21st birthday indeed.

The class got me a leather Topman bag; d' totally metro type! ZOMG.
It's all so nostalgic being with my besties again, reliving the days of nonsensical pranks we'd do on each other in JC.
Yays. LOVEEEEEE.

A very funny vid of woon -as always.

Before I end the entry, it was Uncleeee Jeffery's birthday and we got him a cake before entering the cinema to catch THE DARK KNIGHT. 意思意思 only. Nevertheless, happy birthday Jeff!

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Awfully late dinner on Friday night at Ms Clarity Cafe with my former colleagues and friends from ESS.

Missed; not forgotten.

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To know that you love and are loved - it's all that will suffice.

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Walking on Sunshine
I used to think maybe you love me, now baby I'm sure
And I just cant wait till the day, when you knock on my door
Now every time I go for the mail box, gotta hold myself down
'cause I just cant wait till you write me, you're coming around

[Chorus]
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
I'm walking on sunshine (whoa oh)
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
And don't it feel good (HEY!) Alright now
All right now yeah! (HEY!)

I used to think maybe you love me, I know that it's true
And I don't wanna spend all of my life just waiting for you (just waiting for you
Now I don't want you back for the weekend, not back for a day, no, no, no
Baby I just want you back and I want you to stay

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I must apologise for the lack of consistency on blogging here but the week has been so happening I couldn't write nor upload in time. The next few upcoming posts should be all backdating the past few events over the week. Yays~

...But first up, the highly anticipated event (on my side) - the 16th July event. I think we contemplated on the idea for a very long time and Jo decided to throw a party. This is not exactly the most iconic thing to represent the place but you should have figured it out by now it was held at Sentosa.

Sentosa Siloso Beach Resort~~ Tadahs!

I love the pool the most because it's longer than olympics sized pool which means I can swim a few good laps.
Notice the nuptial queensize bed with the white linen covers. *tsk

The suite comes with two levels and on the second floor we have an open space area with a jacuzzi mini pool and -walahh- rattan suntan chairs!

Wee~ fountain!
-_-" this is meant to be an artistic shot; clearly a failed attempt.
(oh yar, baby pooh was the mascot for the night's event but you'll be seeing more photos in later posts)

I wanted to say "the breathtaking view", but then again this is realllly nothing compared to the bigger oceans we have in other parts of the world. Oh well, coconut trees/palm trees/sandy beach/sunny weather/bikini babes...you get the idea.

Okayokay! Now for the actual event itself!

Getting changed and ready to welcome the guests~~

I made my guests write their own name tags with silly adjectives that starts with the same alphabet as their first name and had them paste the tags on their shirt.

In random order, Artistic Abel!
Kinky Keith!
Raunchy Reuben!
Desperate David!
Horny Huiru!
Don't we all love you?
Someone getting high.
Enormous Elaine!
Juicy Jeff!
Yes~ making their grand entrance up to the open area.
LanJ*** Leonard!
We played "Two Truths, One Lie" it was kinda awkward at first as an icebreaker game but I think things slowly picked up. All the raunchy lil' secrets revealed that evening eh~
And then the cake came. Bakerzin cheese cake layered with oreo flakes!
The last group shot before Leonard dunked me into the jacuzzi pool!
After the cake cutting we made our way downstairs and a few of them decided to play "dirty" with babypooh. Bondage eeks.
Had to be Huiru.
=(
Reubs!
Card games~
Leonard and Abel serenading with their guitars and singing upstairs.

Thank you KY and Jaron who dropped by too but it was a pity I forgot to take picture with you guys~

It wasn't exactly a blast but I reckon it a decent soiree event or get-together.

All these could not have been made possible without Jo so kudos to you!

I have more photos but they will be up in the next entry~ (pants while moving on to writing the next entry)

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Thank God for the angels
Sent from above,
No need for wings,
My "Angels Are Friends"

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I didn't think it was necessary but I guess it won't kill to show a bit of appreciation I guess.

For the simple SMS-es, peppered with love and your blessings that I will carry with me dearly. To the people who have watched me take every step over the many years; it hasn't been easy growing up but I can't imagine how life would have been without you all.

MY most sincere thanks to Jo, Reuben, Zee, Fye, JS, Stanley, Michelle, Greg, Huiru, David, Leonard, Weixiang, Woon, Alvin, Jeff, Keith, Elaine, Shawn L, Jenyi, Zhiwen, Keifer, Kayyang, Si'En, Zhi Hui, Yang Jie, Adrian, Jonathan, Dixon, Mel, Glenn, Jaron, Abel, Hock Chuan, Shiang Wah, Tammy, YeeKiat, Andrew, Shawn Fong, Josh, Zaleha, Alvin Yap, Clarence Chiang, Josh Khng, Michael...I hope I didn't leave out any name(s).

Most importantly, thank you to mommy and daddy for the many years of raising me up. I owe to you for who I have become today.

A few good souls who deserve special mentioning:
Jenyi...for the midnight call you made just to wish me happy birthday. It really meant a lot so thank you once again.
MY DAD...for the specially wrapped hardcover diary with all your written blessings on the first page. It is probably the most endearing special gift yet.
Fyedee...okay there wasn't any special deed I should credit you for on the 17th. But thank you for simply being my bestie and for the very emotive and purposeful words you said last nightabout our friendship.
Michael...for making the call all the way from the states; and it's still funny how I can't "fault" you for sending your belated greetings given the different time zone.
Reubs...for the oversized Pull & Bear top =)
Greg and Elaine...for the inside "小强" the bday card.
Leonard...for the red adidas waterbottle and cap. I like!
Jeff...for the NUM dragonboat singlet weee~ if I ever make it do DB this will come handy =)
Huiru, David and Abel...for the comforter and bedsheet to prepare me for hall life! So thoughtful of you guys eh.
Jaron...for the generous angbao!
Shiang Wah...for the developed photos from the egg farm (tsk) and the comic book.
Jo...for everything everything everything =)

Thank you all for making this 21st so meaningful.

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Weeee~ this was taken at a spur of the moment.

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I will make this a short entry. Met up with Abel and Jo and Jo drove us for really late makan at ABC and it was quite a feast. After that we decided to check out the Southern Ridges. We only had enough time to visit the Alexander portion. I wanted to take more photos but my camera battery had to die on me at the wrong time.

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It's time.

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Due to a shrinking pocket size and almost negligible income, life is taking a turn and I am converting to ascetic.

Even the city's sight and sound seem so distant now.

School should start right away and I can cut the excess time at doodling.

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飛翔いたら
戻らないと言って
目指したのは
青い青いあの空

この羽根を広げ　飛び立つ

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Yes. Enough IS ENOUGH.

I've decided to stop my erratic spamming of photos since this was never meant to be a photolog in the first place; I mean if you are really keen about visual treats on my everyday life you should drop by my place and look up my fascinating granny-old photo album stocks.

I need a breakthrough in life. NOW. This instant.

...before I collapse in sheer disbelief to my utter failure in life and miserable existence in blind compliance with consistency.

Wow what a mouthfull.

(Need to/need NOT TO) Go down to TCHS gym today with Chris since everyone figured that tis the season as the nationals draws near and a gym camp is so expected. A part of me wants to go, but god-damn-it, the other half says to fuck the cliched fellowship or allegiance that was never borne. This is the right time to question my decision making abilities and drawing apart the rational and sentimental part(s) of me. I feel like a wreck.

I figured that at different walks of life we chance upon or should I say forge new cliques quite naturally and despite the lack of opportunity to stay in touch we still keep one another on our mind. Thank god for friends, for without them life would have been so lonelyyyy.

Oh I had a haircut on a second account- twice in a week and I was rather awed by my irrational vanity having to go to such expense this time because the first haircut was clearly a major injustice done to me. I couldn't stand the poodle hairdo and was clear on my stand on getting my bangs snipped. Heck with the stylomilo takeshi kaneshiro in the late 90s look, salvaging some decency for myself was of top priority as of yesterday. So it's back to shorthair Eddie and even though the change was no significant improvement to the earlier one, I will be safe as long as I stay unseen at social functions the next few weeks.

17th July is nearing. Exasperating ><

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Season 3, Episode 7. The yet most revealing and indubiously best since the second season. I will remember this moment.

For all you know,

everything's fucked up.

But it doesn't matter, because you know

you'll be
...just fine.

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More photo uploads, almost sent for archives! nolahnolah, sunday night at vivo. Dr Reubs is back in SG finally! Look at those set of glossy white teeth~killer smile sia.
Kiddo spotted standing behind the glass wall in front of Pull and Bear, he gave that meek cheeky look that was so unbearable and cute all at the same time.

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