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The most sensitive and the weakest emotional type in all Zodiacs he is the
man. Most Artists are Cancer. Cancer is controlled by the “Moon” and the moon
change it’s shape daily, so Cancer man’s emotional and moods change all the time
too. You will confuse with him and yet it is his constantly changes that “Charm”
you.

He never goes to get what he wants directly, but he will wait? For
chance and opportunity to do so. Once he gets what he wants, he will not lose
it, except if he gets tired of it by himself. The most sensitive man who cannot
stand rejection. He cares what other people feel or think of him. He hates
loosing face and he tends to over protect himself, so sometimes people might
think he is a cold person. Gifted, creative, imaginative, is Cancer.

Mystery and complexity play a major role in a life of a Cancer man. He could be
very funny, very quiet, and suddenly very sad. Living with him could be much
unexpected, for you will not know what his next mood is. If you like excitement
and surprise, you have the right guy and never have a chance to get bored. He
thinks of his home as “nest” and it is the safest place for him. If he feels
hurt or depress he will stay at home alone quietly.

Once he feels better, he will come out of his retreat and lives normally again. Being a looser is not him. It is so easy to fall in love with this guy because he is gentle and
a very polite guy. His wit and creative mind could win your affection. He will
come out from his nest to protect you even if he is not opening himself up to
other people much. Not many people will win his heart. His security is only when
he has money in his pocket.

Once he feels secure then he might think of having a happy family. Even he likes to make and keep money, he is not stingy. Spending money is part of his good image, so he will be happy to spent money to take you out to a very expensive restaurant or buy jewelry for you. Certainly when he has money he is OK. He is possessive to everything’s that he thinks belong to him.

Don’t try to talk to another cute guy/gal in front of him; he will get suspicious because he is not very secure or confident in himself for this kind of competition. Once you know each other too much, he will start to look for new excitement, but not to worry for he will always think of you. If he thinks you are the true love for him, and you try once to disappear. You will be sure he will come and look for you. He is a shy guy, but if he likes you. You can get up in the morning and see that he is in front of your house everyday till you go out with him, a very persistent guy. He likes a secure, cheerful and lively woman, confident but at the same time always acts proper and appropriate. He likes a secure woman, but able to adjust to his rapid changes. In the beginning, you and he will be so sugary sweet together and he will only think of you.

This so “super romantic” will not last forever, so don’t slip this chance. If you are the one who want his interest, then act and make yourself interesting. Be a supportive person and give him compliment sometimes, but not too much till he thinks you are not sincere. Unlike many other Zodiacs, if he is mad then you better get out of that room. He will calm down by himself. Giving him a slight touch on his shoulders or concerned facial expression are enough. He loves his mother, so try to be his mother favorite, but do not act like his mother.

Dinner @ Terra Cafe for two last weekend.

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Hatred has its roots deep

- 7:13 PM

I did not realise how much I had hated him until yesterday when CPL Ng told me that "D" has been appearing in my camp recently for unknown reasons and I let off instantly a "I don't want to see him".

All those pent up antagonism since high school days.

Sigh.

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I feel like a superman

Saturday, June 09, 2007 - 11:05 PM

(oh. and gatsby moving rubber hairwax is really good. everyone should get one.)

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Hiding in my shell

- 9:36 AM

I was thinking, have I retreated so much these days I look like one social hermit?

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Shopping

Friday, June 08, 2007 - 10:50 PM

Shopping was a bit despairing today, either I couldn't get myself to spend a bit more $$$ or there really wasn't anything that caught my eye.

The recent Gatsby Moving Rubber advertisement on television caught my attention though, I made myself get the new hair wax. Takuya Kimura with his silly ad convinced me afterall!


Stock up on my contact lense too, trying out a new brand though. Anyone got any good deals for contact lenses?

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Humbled

Wednesday, June 06, 2007 - 10:16 PM

I made a crude remark to my 2nd lieutenant this afternoon.

"You can't (tell me you don't know how to handle this). You are a 2nd lieutenant."

I guess I wasn't thinking right then. Another of my sarcastic not-thinking-straight remarks I just bark out bluntly sometimes. And it didn't take long before he returned the blow.

"...DUDE. YOU AND I ARE NOT SO CLOSE AS FOR YOU TO TELL ME SOMETHING LIKE THAT. I DON'T FIND THAT APPROPRIATE OF YOU TO SAY SOMETHING LIKE THAT TO ME."

Of course I brushed off his rebuke with a cynical smile and told him I take back what I said to appease him. I thought I had buried the hatchet on the spot and recovered a tinge of my pride lost.

...

...Then came the repercussions. I should have knew it coming.

That sense of guilt came hitting me intermittently the entire day. It was shame in its purest form. I admit I was ashamed of myself, not for what I said but because I realised (after some major self-reflection) I was subconsciously jealous of my officer.

Nearly one year ago when I got posted into SISPEC I told myself that not getting into an officer cadet school does not depreciate my value for what I am worth. I don't have to be an officer to prove myself afterall. That explains somehow why I have developed a passion to strive so hard in my wing as a specialist, and I am not abashed about that. I guess I have always wanted to prove henceforth to everyone out there that as limited as a 3SG may seem, I can justify my value and excel as a worthy specialist in unit.

...Which I probably did so far (hopefully).

I gained my bosses' recognition with every ounce of effort I put in. For some time I even thought I would have made myself a remarkable figure, someone who could have been so effervescent I could influence the fellow instructors positively.

Unknowingly I inflated my inner ego, so much so that it became disproportionally big and hindered my sight.

I didn't know my ego got the better of me, until this time.

I must admit that I have forgotten for some time my place in the wing; it's time I come to my senses and humble myself before the rest.

Shortly after I left camp this evening, I messaged my officer to apologise for my blunt remark.

I couldn't accept once that an amateurish officer who have had no prior experience in instructional training and is not weapon trained to be excel or surpass what I would have been capable of. I could not accept once that what I could not have achieved in the past as a specialist has now been all attained by my officer, so much so that he could garner respect and recognition from my peers.

But I must admit he is one helluva good officer(and friend) whom I truly respect now. 2LT Jonathan.

I guess it's all these small incidents that make us find our inner demons. =P

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Corrinne's Back For Me!

Tuesday, June 05, 2007 - 8:19 PM

I feel like being one selfish meanie tonight and not spread the good news about Corrinne in fear that the chances of getting good seats for her concert may be abated. Guess not. Corrinne May's Concert at NUS is opening tomorrow on SISTIC, so grab your tickets soon guys!

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CPL Ng

Monday, June 04, 2007 - 9:28 PM

I am constantly terrorized by the thought of having CPL Ng Weiping as one of my ASC trainees this season!

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Hoots*

Sunday, June 03, 2007 - 1:40 PM

Okays. Updates once again...

...I mean, what's new? (shrugs)

My course is (finally) setting in starting tomorrow with the incoming 32-over fresh ASC trainees posted from BSLC. I guess it's the last thing I am looking forward to before I ORD this november. Grim and sadistic, but yes, it's back to good tekan-ing from 3SG Edwin and whatever up his sleeves. I have a lot of pent up frustrations I need to release upon these days afterall.

There's a crying urge inside of me to shop today but I am confining that metrosexual inside of me for the time being...at least for this weekend before pay day arrives! (><)

I know I said it before, but I am still angsty against my failure at TP last week. My driving license delayed just like that. I have no one to blame but myself nonetheless.

Have you ever felt being so forcefully repressed from inside, a part of you that wants to break free so badly but you can't and you can almost implode? Well I am going through that phase these days. It's kinda contradictory but I don't know how to put it otherwise.

You know there was once when I used to be glad and unabashed about whenever someone asks about my age and I'd tell them I belong to the 1987 batch? Not any longer. I realise my twentieth birthday can be one helluva scary moment of truth, it is regrettably true I am stepping into the terrible twenties.

Okay and that was Uncle Eddie's weals and woes of the week. I can be one whiner sometimes!

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Hate and Love Isn't Very Much Different Afterall.

- 1:23 PM

Something I got off from a not-so-related friend's blog...put in some thoughts if you'd please:

(A dumped B and hated him for some trivial reasons, and so it goes...)

"but he doesn't know, that hate is another form of love. is all this the
power of great love? having one feel he wish he hadn't gone through it?"

So is it logically sound that one should feel a sense of injustified hatred to the other half during a breakup, simply out of love itself?

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